I’ve been thinking about heaven and I’ve decided

by Erin Keane


maybe it’s like the moment in The Last Waltz
when we cut away from the Winterland

and join The Band on a soundstage. Suddenly
there’s no live audience, only the silent director,

a crew somewhere off-camera, and Levon
in a fresh shirt starting us off on “The Weight”

with the Staples Singers joining in, all of them
lit sunset warm and a great vast nothing

beyond the edge, something like peace spreading
across Robbie’s face as he plays. What is life

but a story of misadventures and small favors
derailed? What could an afterlife be but a chance

to capture the perfect take, run it again
for all eternity, whatever five-and-a-half-minute

cut of yours that would make Mavis whisper
beautiful like that to let you know

you were done


Erin Keane is the author of the memoir RUNAWAY: Notes on the Myths That Made Me (Belt Publishing), one of NPR’s best books of 2022, and three books of poetry, including DEMOLITION OF THE PROMISED LAND (Typecast Publishing), poems inspired by Bruce Springsteen. An essay she wrote about The Band and Bruce is out now in the anthology HIT REPEAT UNTIL I HATE MUSIC: The March Xness Anthology from Split/Lip Press. She is a member of the MFA faculty at Spalding University’s Naslund-Mann School of Writing and is chief content officer at Salon.com. Her favorite pizza topping is anchovies, but only the really good ones.